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Jordan Catherine Pagán Deer Heart Ix Mazatl Ol-Si

formely Ostara Apothecary

currently practicing on Lenape-Canarsie land (Brooklyn, NY)

ABOUT ME

I practice Reiki, 13th Octave LaHoChi, Pranayama Breathwork, Tarot, and create Plant & Vibrational Medicines. These are beautiful tools gifted to us by the universe, who loves us so, so much. They have changed my life in ways I never imagined.

And they will change yours. 

It doesn't happen overnight, but you can heal yourself from anything. You may be thinking "How? I am doing everything I can already." I have thought that so many times myself. I was a completely jaded skeptic. But by being here, reading this right now, you have already started a new way. All you need is a willingness to try, and someone to show you the way. Teachers open the door, but you must enter by yourself. 

I will open that door.

This journey is surprising, winding, beautiful, painful, heart-opening, life-affirming and life changing. It is Joy. It is an act of self-love, and the most important commitment you could ever make -- to yourself.  

Let's walk together on this new path. I can't wait to meet you and create magic with you.

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EXPERIENCE

I have studied with renowned healers such as Irma StarSpirit Turtle Woman, Ari Roberts, Pamela Miles, Padma Gonzalez and others. 

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Kind words

Thank you so much Jordan for the supportive role that you’ve been playing in my healing and empowerment. I just want to offer my gratitude as a token of reciprocation and appreciation. Even before our breathwork session this evening I’ve been thinking about how grateful I am for how much your violet flower essence has helped me. ⁠
You are so powerful and amazing. I really feel like you change the world through healing.⁠
Thank you.
— Holly N.
I just wanted to thank you again for the beautiful session yesterday. Your lightworking is so powerful and cosmic. I’m still in awe over what I experienced throughout our session. You helped me move through intense, deep blocks of energy that I wasn’t even aware were still an issue. I feel so much lighter, more connected and aligned — just beautiful plant medicines and lightworking.

I can’t recommend your work enough!
— Ashley G.
I was drawn to Jordan because she is a healer who blends spiritual knowledge with grounded social justice work. Her flower essence medicine is NO JOKE! I am a WOC and highly sensitive empath who was looking for help with energetic protection, moving forward with my career, and believing in myself. Jordan created the perfect blend of flowers that has reignited my personal power and confidence! Within the first few days, I felt uplifted and almost electric, shining bright, like the sun. I have been able to gracefully move through moments of my darkest shadow surfacing, while not getting dragged into depressive states. I am so grateful to have the opportunity to work with her!
— Veronica L.
Breathwork with Jordan has truly changed my life!! I’ve been in therapy and meditating for a few years and found a little bit of relief with that, but I have not felt a full RELEASE of blocked energy and old negative stored emotions until I started breathwork with Jordan a few months ago. She has been like an angel in my life helping me release things I have held on for so many years that were previously holding me back. I feel lighter, healthier, more joyful, and more in touch with my energy and emotions than I ever have in my life! She is also so kind, supportive, and trustworthy- I couldn’t recommend her more!⁠
— Emily R.
Jordan has been such a great help to me. I’ve been doing breathwork sessions with her for the past several months. She holds such a safe space for me and easy to delve deeper into myself, my chakras and my soul! Not only has Jordan helped me through breathwork sessions she has also consulted with me in regards to starting my own practice. Whenever I have a question or ask for resources she is quick to respond and to provide. She is so knowledgeable, loving and kind! So beyond grateful that I found her!!! 5 stars 10 out of 10 and Highly Highly Recommend her services!!
— Frankie J
Working with Jordan was extremely monumental in my growth here in NYC. She is a true healer, capable of understanding the depths of both past and present emotional trauma. Her nonjudgmental approach to our sessions was incredibly comforting and tailored to my individual needs. The reiki and breathwork were significant in releasing old, unwanted beliefs about myself. I could feel strong shifts in my body and mind during and after every time we met. Her flower essences are also very powerful and played a great role in my healing process. I highly recommend working with Jordan both short and long term. I’m grateful for our work together and to have such a wonderful person in my life.
— Erin R.
My favorite part of working with Jordan was the feeling of comfort I had both while I was with her during our sessions and afterward. Jordan makes you feel so supported, important, and individual. She works with you in her own way, but really tailored to you and what your soul and body need to heal. She’s an excellent listener and her warmth radiates from her the moment you speak to her — even just over email or text! She’s available and open and it really enhances her healing style.

I would recommend seeing Jordan 100%, whether you’re interested in talking to her about tarot, apothecary, or breath work — she is really a multifaceted healer that is so unique in her practice.
— Katie R.
Apart from being an incredibly compassionate soul, Jordan is truly a gifted healer. I’ve tried a few of her sessions, breathwork and LaHoChi, and they were life changing. It cleared something in me, which is hard to explain - but to put it simply, it opened me up to feeling more in touch with the Divine and is still helping me through my healing journey. I still look back at those moments and see them as turning points. Also, if you don’t have a chance to attend her sessions, her tinctures are also powerful. I have used her Heart of Venus elixir that has worked wonders in opening my heart to others again after years of emotional burnout. I look forward to working with her more.
— Jenny M.⁠
You are the best :) Thank you so much for the Violet Flame info, spending extra time with me to give further guidance after our session and of course the beautiful LaHoChi session. I am so very grateful. I can’t express enough how much I enjoy my sessions with you and how thankful I am for the incredible way each LaHoChi session shifts my energy into a more beautiful, happy vibration.⁠

I appreciate you so much for sharing your gifts and connection with the Archangels to continue to help me heal, manifest and stay in divine alignment. All our sessions are so very special to me. This past LaHoChi session was so incredibly powerful that after our Zoom session the energy remained strong, warmly supportive, and all the beautiful visual aspects of the experience I couldn’t immediately recall all resurfaced. Through your energy and guidance, I feel that you gifted me with the tools needed, and the ‘how’ to reach my next desired chapter. I value this blessing and clarity so very much. You are an amazing healer. I hope anyone in need of healing or guidance is as fortunate as I have been to find their way to you.
— Chenoa E.
When I first started working with Jordan, my emotions scared me. Jordan met me where I was at and helped me feel safe enough to open up. I love her breathwork and reiki package. It’s the perfect mix of intense and comforting. During the breathwork portion, Jordan’s gentle guidance helps me locate and release what I’m ready to let go of. Breathwork can get pretty raw, so reiki is the perfect follow up. Her reiki is always so soothing, and I feel ready to confront the world again afterwards. Plus, Jordan provides tips and tools to focus on in between sessions. Our work together continues to deepen my own spiritual practice and heighten my intuitive awareness. I feel totally transformed. My emotions are more accessible and less intimidating. I wholeheartedly recommend Jordan!
— S.R.
I had worked with Jordan on a number of occasions before purchasing her month-long package. My previous experiences had already fostered trust and I knew her to be a gifted healer, but the degree of growth and healing I experienced in that on each month was astounding. Utilizing two individual sessions and a customized flower essence I was able to move through some blocks that I had been struggling with for years. Her patient, supportive, and trauma-informed methods gave me the support I needed to make big shifts. I would recommend her highly to anyone looking to create real and lasting change in themselves.
— Mikella M.
Jordan is such a gifted healer, and amazing at holding space for others.

I first visited her with my partner for a couples breathwork and reiki session. I had never experienced these modalities before, and I was totally floored by how deeply they affected me. The breathwork was very intense, but it helped illuminate and unravel energetic knots. The reiki was so calming. I felt my heart chakra fill with relief and tranquility as soon as Jordan gave me reiki there.

Some months later, I also visited Jordan for LaHoChi when I was facing some emotional blocks around childhood trauma healing that I was ready to heal on.

During that session I received such loving messages from my guides - both that I heard and saw in my own meditative state and that Jordan received and communicated to me. I did not have a connection to my spirit guides before this or even believe in them, and this session was so powerful that it led me to develop a connection with them. The messages from my guides that Jordan shared were deeply meaningful, transformative, healing, and personal to me.

One of the messages that Jordan shared was to look at a picture of my parents and myself as young children everyday and say “I love you. I forgive you.” So simple but completely transformative for my inner child. The first day I was balling crying for an hour looking at the photos. I was able to grieve and hold sadness for my inner child in such a new way that was furthering my healing and understanding.

My visits to Jordan have been so transformative! I cannot use the word transformative enough! I highly recommend her.
— erin c.
Jordan’s treatments [of breathwork and reiki] have been life changing. After years of on again off again therapy the benefits I am able to achieve with Jordan’s treatments are exactly what I was looking for all along. I am able to get through issues. Accept my feelings. Embrace my emotions and fully experience life in the present moment. Her treatments have open my channels to experience my true self and potential. Thank you!
— Daniel D.
My deepest love to you and gratitude for your extraordinary healings . Although modesty is one of your great strengths I want to say you are also have a rare remarkable ability to heal. When I work with you everything seems to have its place in the order of things. No matter how difficult the experiences are I feel you allow me to release them so that the true clarity of what is already present in us all can just come to be . So thank you to you and the lineages that support you . Thank you for being candid, empathic and fearless. I feel free in ways I have been waiting for forever.
— Ilana B.
My consultation with Jordan was beautifully eye opening. It was clear to me throughout our session that Jordan’s guidance comes from a deeply honest and heart centered place. Her advice is real and never sugar-coated yet gentle and good willed. A highly constructive combination.
I very much recommend her for both consultation and LaHoChi attunement.
— Holly N.
After just one consultation with Jordan, I felt an immediate sense of relief, as well as a renewed sense of purpose. I was struggling to address some underlying issues that were interfering with my ability to move forward in my creative process. With utmost grace, she holds a safe space for dreamers to reflect on the obstacles that prevent them from stepping up to the plate so that their highest expression can be made manifest. She also provides practical tools and resources to ground your visions so that they are not lost floating in the ethers. I was most impressed by her response to my questions pertaining to social justice, equality, inclusivity, and being of service to others while creating a healing based business. She is the real deal. Do yourself a favor and experience some of her magic and wisdom.
— Michelle P.
I admire Jordan’s creative intersections of different healing modalities and her honesty about her healing process. What really made me invest in a session was how she explained this service on her website. I was searching for an energy clearing session and I had several options to chose from, but this was most culturally relevant to me... Unlike other healers I have encountered, she helped to draw forth THE DEEPEST of the deep wounds. Even in my dream world (and despite my family’s ability to dream) I have not encountered such darkness. But in the darkness comes the light, comes our higher selves. Darkness ensures the optimal levels of growth occurs. I was able to see my Inner Child in her fullness and glory too.

I am glad she helped me to complete an integral part in my healing. Prior to the healing, I was in a daze and vibrating at some of the lowest vibrational state possible. But after it, I was able to see Jordan in all of her Highest Self glory. I literally kept saying ‘I see you’. Like her eyes even looked different. I was able to see her as the Spiritual leader she definitely is... I am beyond grateful for what she advised for me to do. I will definitely book her and refer her to those who are seeking to heal. THANK YOU!
— Emily D.
Jordan! Thank you for sharing your healing energy and breathwork with me (us) today. I so needed that time to clear and it’s a constant work in progress for me.... Again THANK you for the work you do and sharing your gift. And of course your bad-ass good music selection that really moved me in an awesome way!
— Myriam M.
Thank you SO much for giving so many tangible tools for a sensitive person to use. Just recently I was feeling so overwhelmed by my sensitivity and then general lack of understanding of it from many people in my life, and your workshop was like a bright light in that moment. Thank you again for sharing your wisdom. I appreciate you and your work!
— Andrea S.
I adore Four of Swords (as well as Strength, Heart of Venus and Elixir of the Goddess).

Have shared these items as gifts for my friends and partner and they are also quite well received.

You are a talented witch and herbalist.
— Natalie LeGrande
Hi Jordan, I just wanted to take a moment to tell you how much I appreciate your work. You have such an amazing presence and grounded energy... You are the perfect healer/teacher and I’m so happy I met you.
— Nicole Jenkins, Prep for Prosperity
I really enjoyed my [Breathwork] experience and it felt like it was what I needed. And your guidance and explanations at the beginning, as well as your presence during the session was incredibly useful. The next day one of my friends, who didn’t know I went to see you, made a comment that I looked better/brighter :) ... I need to come back again!
— Ilona L.
During my reiki session with Jordan I became extremely relaxed. I could feel energy flowing through my body; warmth engulfed my scalp. I actually thought she had applied heat to my head. After the session it was as if a weight had been lifted from me. I was able to sleep the night; something I had not done in weeks!
— Jessica Troncone
I love Ostara Apothecary medicines and essences! My seasonal remedy duo keeps my immune system up and my body healthy. They both taste delicious! I know exactly what’s in these medicines and that makes me happy. I take my flower essences daily, I believe they have been helping me on a vibrational level and with internal healing. Jordan is lovely, she definitely pours her love into her work!
— Stephanie Moreno
Holy freaking frijoles. This Moon tincture TOTALLY WORKS in making my menstrual cramps disappear!!!! I have had INSANE cramping since having my baby, totally debilitating type cramping. But I kid you not, a couple drops of this eased the pain within 10 mins. Get you some!!!
— Vanessa R.
I bought the MOON elixir last night from you and I’m already in love with it! It’s very effective and the taste is actually really great! Thank you so so much!:)
— Danielle K.
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